Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Fallen Angel




Little angel was born, pure nd pious
She loved everyone without any bias..

She thought life wud be a fairytale
But as she grew, her dreams became more pale..

Her fragile wings wanted to fly
To soar new heights in da sky..

But da reality hit her so hard
That she was shattered to shards..

It was da heights of pain
That was making her go insane..

All her dreams were torn
For she was thrown into forlorn..

Her naked body was battered
And her tender wings were spattered..

Her blood had turned blue
It was in its deepest hue..

Now she lay in dead slumber
And her body grew even more numbber..


P.S : this is da first time ive tried writing a poem, so plz excuse me for any mistakes..

Friday, October 12, 2007

aah.. y engineering:((

It was VHDL lab. VHDL- da abbreviation of which, im confused till date. I was late , so I had to rush to the lab.. (dam tat stupid bus i got into..). I was panting for breath wen i finally reached da lab nd found a comfortable chair.. da lecturer lulled me to sleep with his profound(--hence boring) demonstration..

We were asked to perform some expt on FGPA or somethin..yawn!!..My frnd was punching in some code into da comp.. nd we got somethin in yellow on da screen.. i even failed to notice it...i was thinking y did she stop typing, looking at tat yellow thing..??? i was later enlightened by her tat it was a warning nd there was somethin wrong in da synthesis part.. phew .. dam.. dese comps r soo sick!!!

She consulted another guy ( a geek of course.. how do dese ppl manage to study all this shit!!)... they were speaking somethin in greek nd latin $&^#^*..i cudnt even get a single word.. i mean everything was goin above my head..i tried concentrating a second time.. but.. phew!! screw it man.. i know i wud forget it anyways .. so y wasting my sleep... i'd better return back to my hibernation..

Later in da class, i was thrown into oblivion.. y did i ever choose engineering nd ece tat too..dese radars nd diodes are fucking my brain off!!.. i mean i cud hav been a .. a journalist( oh i jus luv travelling:)) .. or may b a critic( either books or movies.. anythin wud have done).. or even a fashion designer( i can pretty much match my shoes nd bag!! yipee!!)..or finally an actor( i always act my fav scenes frm movies in frot of my mirror;) .. nd i always wanted to be in page3 )..
I mean , im in da final year of engineering nd im still perplexed abt my career..im more confused than a child who has to choose bwtn a choclate nd an ice-cream... i mean dis is da heights of idiosyncrasies!!!

Saturday, August 18, 2007

loneliness haunts....


Sometimes i feel there r 'n' people living inside me...
each havin its own desires, each seeking its own destiny , each takin its own breath,each fighting for its own existence, each one trying to take control over me...

Sometimes im dis bubbly grl next door, challenging, smart nd sassy, having loads of frndz, does dozens of masti , giggling at stupid boyz, gossiping over other grls, sweetheart of my parents, having a beatific smile at every problem tat comes my way....

But most of da time, im dominated by a lonely person living with storming debates in her brain... seeking for solitude.. craving for pain... undisturbed by crowds.. mind secluded from worldly beings.. jus stare at da sky drifting in my own melancholy...
Thinking of the innumerable moments.. some gud, some bad, some breathtaking, some heart breaking.. but all fake... moments.., somewhere frozen in time.. relationships presumed to be eternal but were just ephemeral blues... words tat keep running thru ears.. images tat keep flashing in mind..
so untrue, so feign....
Believed in fantasies, believed in dreams, believed in relationships, believed in emotions, believed in love..
all when i was kid...
But as i grew up , as i started hitting da reality,
fantasies faded, dreams shtattered, realtionships vanished, emotions faked out...
nd love.. hmm... it lost its meaning completely...
But something veracious happened during this period... my heart broke into a million pieces.. it seared down to ashes.. it lost its life...
From the innocent grl, i transformed into an emotionless female... a callous loner who doesnt even trust her own soul...

Saturday, July 7, 2007

a walk to remember....

I've always wished to see da sunrise near da beach with my luved one holding his hand...I jus mentioned him once as far as i cud remember...
It was our first anniversary...It was slightly drizzling tat day.. We met at six in da morning...I expected tat he wud take me for a drive along da coast line.. Instead he stopped da car near by nd we got out... I was confused as wat we wud do in tat place...There were stairs down da walkway nd he suggested we shud go down to da beach...He held ma hand nd took me down... There were rocks far into da sea...I was a bit reluctant to walk on those rocks... But he insisted on it... We sauntered till da end nd finally sat down on those rocks..

I could feel da dampness in da air...A breeze picked up nd i shivered in my thin cotton salwar...The waves were splashing hard on da rocks...It started raining a bit heavily now...rain drops dripping frm our faces... I was a lil tensed nd wen he finally touched me , an undefinable tremor went through my body... He held my hand nd drew me closer... I cud feel his breath...I cud hear his heartbeat...My heart started racing now... He whispered somethin in my ears...."i luv u"..., kissed me softly nd held me tightly in his arms...I felt secure in his cocoon...I never wanted tat magical moment to die down..
It was da moment i realised tat nuthin in this world cud ever come between us...

It was da moment i realised i luved him too...It was one of da most breathtaking moments in ma life...No matter how far our lives takes us away," ill always luv u"....

Thursday, June 21, 2007

rain....

It was 10 :30pm.. a usual cold night...It was raining outside heavily..I was wondering wat was he doin right now nd y didnt he cal yet..i was sitting near my window in my room nd watching da rain washing away da streets...I tried catching few droplets with my hand...

My parents were getting ready to sleep nd my sis was watching da tv...Suddenly my door bell rang nd my sis called out for me.. She said somebody was asking for me... I wondered who was it at tat part of da night...

I went outside to da door.. He was standing dripping wet on my stairs...He was wearing my fav tee.. da red one with blue stripe nd blue jeans...He was leaning against da wall nd gave his usual boyish grin...I went nd hugged him tightly..nd was completely wet da next moment...I wondered wat my parents wud think if they saw me in my wet clothes...He said he was missing me a lot so walked in da rain to my place... Like i wanted, my fairytale love story was comin true...I cud not ask nethin else frm ma life..

The first time i ever realised tat i liked him was also a rainy day.. We were walkin down da street nd he suddenly looked into da sky nd gave a smile...I thought he felt tat i was a God's gift to him...He dropped me near my place nd raced his bicycle for he was gettin late for his tutions... I ran onto my terrace to get a quick look of his....The rain drops then brought a smile on my lips...

Now it is again raining.. da only difference being tat my prince is no longer there... But his essence is still alive in my heart..
Rain brought me memories of da past..
It brought me tears at last...

Rain brought me kisses nd hugs...
It brought me fights nd patch-ups...

Rain brought luv into my life...
It brought life into my life!!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

ACCENTURE MAY 2nd


hmm...

lemme start blogging with one of da best days of ma life... tats da day i got my first job...



May 1st

i wasnt so inetersted in goin for da placement.. so didnt prepare nethin previously... my frnd came to ma place nd started checking otu for details in da net.. but i was least bothered... i took out my resume ( copy paste frm da mail madhu sent me)..... i got my new dress nd few accesories for da next day... i was more excited to for da new look rather than da interview...



May 2nd

7:00 : i was off ma bed nd started gettin ready reluctant still to go to da interview...



8:00 : i got ready early but somethin churning in ma stomach... dint know.. may b tension...

later realised tat i was late for da coll bus...nd my frnd was waiting for me..poor thing she also missed da last bus for me.... we chased da bus in autos.. but finally ended up goin to col in autos itself...

9:00 :i was in da coll somehow.. nd was dam tensed ... i went to our bhavan nd saw all ma frnds chatting outside da classroom nd was bit relieved... we waited around 1/2 hr .. then da testtakers came in... all chapathis nd cute fellas surprisingly... me nd madz line marofied them also hehe....

9:30 : da test started ... i was a bit tensed but was actually planning for a movie in my mind after the written test.. nd was confused which movie to opt... i gave da test.. it was a 1hr test nd i ran out of time as usual out of tension...

10:30 : all of us were out nd were discussing abt da movie program nd we were told to go to seminar hall in dental bhavan... went there in da hot sun....nd they played da
movie ramayana out of no where.. i was so pissed off nd started laughin seeing things..

12:00 : da accenture ppl hav not yet arrived nd we were asked to wait... we went to canteen nd munched somethin hurriedly... nd when we came back they left us for lunch... i was so irritated.... then we walked all da way to hostel for lunch in tat humid climate...

2:00 : we were at da seminar hall again both tired nd exhausted ... me exhausted 'cos i missed out da noon show also nd i desperately wanted to see tararumpum... hmm.. da seminar finally started... they gave all da company details nd believe me da company was too gud... i was feelin very sad tat i didnt even try for such a big firm... i was unsure abt my written test.. me nd madz thought we messed up our written like those guys in fps.... finally da moment came wen results were announced... they told out of 700, 350 were selected...they were callin ppl in batches of 15 each.... firstly none of my classmates went... then slowly my frnds names were called out.. madz went nd i felt very lost...then suddely da name came.... KARTIK TEJA ECE-A ..... i was so goddam happy tat i rushed out of da auditorium...
4:00 : da whole buliding was a total mess.. ppl running for gds with their resumes.. da ones who got through with big smiles on their faces.... our batch had 15 ppl mostly grls...i knew most of them were strong..da topic was reservation.... i was so happy with da topic.. i knew i wud rock da gd session... i spoke of course with decent intervals... nd got through it...
5:00 : i was asked to bring my gpa sheets of each semester.. i didnt hav da 1st yr ones.. i managed somehow saying tat i had sent them for my scholarship... we had wait in a class room for more than two hrs... i wanted to get thorugh for dis company 'cos i dint wanna run with my resume for da following ones...i was too lazy for all tat..

8:00 : all da grls in all batches were called out 'cos it was gettin too late... i went in for myHR round at around 9'oclock... i was very thrilled abt this round.... it was like a cake walk for me... it was a normal chat session nd i impressed my interviewer tat i was worth a million...she told i did quite well nd asked to go for da next round.
9:30 : now dis was da part i was most horrified abt.. da tech round.. i hardly remembered nethin in c or c++.... luckily i asked a guy who already gave his tech round( my classmate in 1st yr ) some questions on c & ds.... nd to my luck da interviewer posed me da same q's.. he offered me some tea nd biscuits to which i refused even though i was dam hungry.... he asked me to introduce myself.. i made this guy also believe tat im a consistent player...he asked me normal ques abt my priortisation towards banglore nd stuff.... nd at da end he told me hav fun nd party... at tat point i was quite sure tat i got selected...

i liked da warmth of da air nd da glow of those yellow lights in my coll... everythin was so calm but my heart was thumping with excitement..i somehow thought dis wud b a slap for all those ppl who insulted me... dis was my turn to take da revenge...

they told they wud announce da results next day morning... i was reviewing da whole interview all night i slept at around 3...nd as expected i got selected... this is one da best days of my life... nd i donno y im writing up such a big mahabharta to bore u guys... neways hav fun nd ill b back with another posting soon...